There’s something about tonight….

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I am not sure what it is about tonight.  Maybe it’s just because i finally have my computer set up, or the need to write something, or talk to someone….

or perhaps that i have a totally badass keyboard that makes the “tic tak” noises ON PURPOSE that i’m buying from my brother….

But i’m drawn to my computer.  To type something.  I don’t know what it is yet though.  Moving back into my parent’s house was a big blessing in my life….

I’m just a little worried that things aren’t going to go very well.  Mom is already complaining about my doggo, Nova, and the fact that I started decorating my room (with nails to hang things but then…. I really don’t know a reliable way to keep things up), and the fact that whenever I park in the driveway, my brother decides that he needs to park there too.

I cried at work today.  Things are getting a little overwhelming because I can’t work from home at all, even though i would love to, and I have so much computer work to do….

Lists to make and systems to update with information that is vital to the business continuing.  I didn’t even mean to get this job.  The job that is basically my dream job at basically my dream shop.  There’s a lot of negativity coming from the old staff and my friend is getting a lot of flack for helping the shop.

I really wish that people would just mind their own damn business and be kind to one another.  There is so much to a story than just your point of view.  Everyone is the main character in their own stories but so many don’t realize the affect they have on the people reading them.  (I hope that made sense.)

My handmade items aren’t selling at all.  I’m thinking i’m just not talented enough in order to make good quality items.  That’s the thing with being a jack of all trades…. I don’t excel at any one thing.  I make subpar things and then some people like them (mostly obligatory “wow that looks great!”)… but it’s never good enough.

I hope I can make decent youtube videos… Maybe…

Midnight…. We meet again….

I’m so over not sleeping but my silly little brain likes to leave my pills in the van.  Of course every time i go out to get them… I get distracted.  3 Times by Darla (cat) curled up on a chair on the porch…. I’m a terrible person.  but probably not.  Youtube is both my friend and my enemy at this point.  I keep trying to find things to read or comment on but i’m not good at finding those sorts of things.

Reddit?  I still don’t understand how that works.  Yeah.  I know, i’m getting old, shut up.

no wait, come back!  I’m sorry, that was mean of me.

Can we still be friends?  Yes you can call me old but only if i get to make fun of the fact that you like justin beiber.  fair?  fair.

Okay… so youtube…. enemies…. OH!!!  So, sleeping on my best friends couch is pretty cool.  I get to have the living room to myself, I get to sleep with my dog Nova… and then reality sets in and I end up getting the creepy crawlies all night (My apologies if you continue reading and get them too)

I have picked several ticks off of myself about every other night.  Usually I can head this off by performing tick checks on Nova (in particular), Diesel, and Smaug.  Smaug is a bit difficult because he is old and doesn’t care for laying on his back.  Diesel is rambunctious but usually doesn’t have any on him.  Nova, on the other hand usually has anywhere from 1-3 on her at night.  I usually try to do the checking after I get home from work since the dogs will have been outside if not all day, then part of the day.

YAAAAAAY country living.

Youtube beginnings

For several weeks now, my friend Crystal and I have been talking about ways that we can make money from home.  Not a get rich quick thing or anything.  More like, trying to make ends meet and have a little on the side for savings.  I’m still trying to save for my camper and Crystal and her hubby, Adam, are trying to save for land of their own.  They currently rent but we want to practice a bit of homesteady stuffs.

So far i’ve monetized my blog and Adam has a youtube channel and Crystal and I thought that it would be a good idea to try to start one up.  Of course, we have to try to get content and we have to have an editing app for the video.  Who knows.

I’m super dumbed down today because all that’s been on the tv has been kids shows….

How do you make friends?

I really need to make more friends.  Like, even one more friend would be good.  I know that lots of people survive on being alone and in the internet which i am totally no dogging on.  I’m just not that type of person.  The only problem is that i only have 2 close friends that live near me that I can hang out with when needed/wanted/called upon.  One is my partner and the other is my best friend.  Unfortunately my BFF is moving to a different state this summer.  Which is super amazing for them because they’ll be following their plans and dreams and continue being a super amazing person.  The unfortunate thing is that I cannot go with them, not that I should or whatever, but this means i’m down one person that can get me out of the house when i really need to be pulled out.

BTW….

Depression totally sucks.  vodka is delicious.

I do not promote drinking while depressed or while on anti depressants.

Please drink responsibly….

and when you’re done please drink some water because hangovers suck.

p.s. the lonely island is funny as hell.